Poetaster

Trying to understand the infinite, one poem at a time.

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12.08.2006

POETASTER HAS MOVED

Thanks to all loyal readers, but Poetaster has left for better, more Mac-friendly climes at Typepad. Find me at the link above. Over the coming weeks, I'll be transferring all content, as well as adding new work.

10.17.2006

Noli me tangere

It is the small, light thing in grief
That pushes hardest on the heart:
The telephone, the TV, breakfast.
The hellos and goodbyes that happened
With quotidian comfort now dissappear,
And I shake with sheer awe
At the size of the absence. You will
Not return. There will be no return.

8.29.2006

Geomancy

The light illuminates the page
As I tilt the book toward the light—
A major work, and I am a lover
Of books. The earth tilts away,
And the back of summer is broken.
There is an urgency in the hills,
To gather, to fledge, to finish,
For now. All things will go golden.
Even the air, it seems. For now.
The rain comes, and I find comfort:
The sun is only sun; the rain, rain.

7.19.2006

The Gibbous Moon Waxing

This is an opening. I forget about that.
The wrens arguing in the branches have
Nothing to do with me, but the seeming
Import in their tone is deceiving,
So I pause to read their signs, remain
Ignorant. I've lost meaning,
The elements of my desire:
The ease in the wind of the dragonfly,
Unseen luminous blue of its body,
With purposes all its own.

1.05.2006

The Santa Anas

We left off trying to summit when the Santa Anas
Returned. Watching the sage on the hillsides
Rattle with the dry wind, it seemed some
Signal or sign, and we turned back without
Speaking. Now, I have come for the strangeness
Of the change, the sudden shift in emphasis
That makes the confused maples push out
Exhausted buds--too soon, too soon.
In your empty hands you hold that air,
That heat and shocking lack, bringing it all
Back around to tomorrow, when the wind
Will shift again, away east perhaps, from the ocean,
All ending in entropy, the seneschal of the spirit.

11.11.2005

Speaking of the Philosopher

Avt tace Avt Loqvere merloria silentio [“Be silent unless your speech be better than silence”]
— Salvator Rosa, inscribed on his self portrait

This is Commedia dell’Arte, no doubt: Rosa, in the guise of Brooding
Thought, cocksure thought, the philosopher all’improviso.

Your mistress Muse looks like you, too, Poet, Painter, Trickster.
I always assume you are there, in the landscape somewhere.

When you say Be Silent, at first the mouth tightens, like so.
Words disperse, the thoughts behind them thicken into consideration

Until suddenly (What a joke you play, what silence you propose!)
The viewer knows, nervously avoiding your eyes--

Eyes (Oh, the right one, the one that knows!) of an impresario--
That I'm imagining the outside view, looking at reflections

Of me-as-a-[you decide], talking double to the self and to us,
Philosophizing you.

Pascariello, you; and Soldier you, too.

This is better than silence. The selves, they mask and dance,
They play each other, Capitano, they play you. Glancing

at us only to fool us and seduce us with the rôle,
the dress, that currently catches your interest, ours.

Though the question is amateurish, I must ask,
Where are you? Displeased, droll, looking slightly down

on Naples? The ragged clouds and sepia air you project
are atmosphere for your command, your dramatis persona.

When is speech better than silence? Which silence, the silence
Of the canvas? or my furrowed brow and frowning mouth?

I imagine a play with a frame in the middle: I consider
The quiet to be dangerous and so chatter like a sparrow.

You remain unmoved, but formulate responses in the form
Of different attitudes. I look on, postulate a theory, content

To quote experts, provide allusions. You display props
And change into costumes that say by synecdoche.

It’s all in my imagination, of course. My mind’s eye.
The reader may imagine me before the picture in England,

Infatuated by a handsome face long dead, the love of illusion,
Sublimating for hours while people pause, and then pass.

My thoughts buzz and hum in this public display of affection,
While I stand still as that painted stone. The reader may know,

But silence there. Silence here. We operate in the same circles,
Whoever you are. You say, Imagine me centuries from now,

Staring at you tricked out in my mind, limned
With a darkening sky behind you, frowning at me darkly,

Wondering if centuries from now you would be
Staring at me intensely, cautious, ready to speak.

10.25.2005

The October Poem

A month of waiting, suspended between instants.
What an absurd name for its lengthening nights,
Its overused spookiness and migratory birds.
September passed without leaving a mark on me,
And I am written on by the word. Looking at the last
Gray light resting on the leaves, I feel an absence
Of transmission, what the leaf perceives denied
To me. This is no comfort. I want to be lost
In a beautiful knot of language, in the deep not
Now of the past. But the day, like the month, like now,
Is going and I know that terrible exeunt in its metaphor,
In the light, in the spot of rot on the pomegranate,
Even in this wresting, questing after an end.